R.LUM.R 05. Happy

I stay focused on the stress and how it keeps compounding

I hate how I can’t think of nothing else

It's like I’m drowning

'Cause all i see brand new faces on these people ‘round me

And it gets hard to know who loves you and which of 'em doubts you

There be some shit that I can’t talk about with no one else

The type of shit that keeps my circle small and to itself

'Cause if you not around me, tryna find a way to help

Then get the fuck from 'round me I don’t need nobody else

Let me feel what I feel

How I feel when I feel what I feel

Let me feel what I feel

When I feel how I feel when I feel

Tryna learn how to deal

Without hurting, the way that I feel

Let me feel what I feel

When I feel how I feel, yeah

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy (Ha)

Regardless if this pressure real or I’m imagining

I agonize and fantasize what other people think

I just can’t disappoint no matter what you mean to me

Can’t fuckin' believe that I still care what other people think

If I admit that to myself I’d prolly disagree

'Cause there’s no way a man allows himself to be that weak

Pull out the driveway late at night, no where I need to be

Guess I'll just spend another night alone outrunning me

Let me feel what I feel

How I feel when I feel what I feel

Let me feel what I feel

When I feel how I feel when I feel

Tryna learn how to deal

Without hurting, the way that I feel

Let me feel what I feel

When I feel how I feel, yeah

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy

I wanna be happy (Ha)